Thanks Mom

It’s been a good day, minus some weird poppy-growing, sandalwood sniffing, probably pot smoking boy ripping us (the floral shop) off a reed diffuser.  I didn’t have proof, so it didn’t go anywhere.  Definitely made me mad though.
I also have some religious co-workers who believe that the election of Obama will lead us closer to the “End of Days.”  They had the scriptures and teaching to back up their theories while all that was going through my head was a made-up McCain Ad that says “Don’t Vote for Obama” and a picture of the Earth exploding.  Maybe I should join his ad campaign.
I also got the bottom of something that has been bugging me.  I’ve been living each day with this huge sense of urgency in the pit of my stomach and I feared that simply, I was going crazy…but I think I understand it:
You see, I don’t live in fear of dying.  However, when my mom died there were so many circumstances that left so many questions that will never be answered.  I hate unanswered questions, however, ironically it’s this burden that has turned into my gift.  I live now with this urgency-not in fear of death-but to answer every unanswered question.  Whether it’s of relationships or experiences, should something happen to me or to someone close to me, I don’t want any unanswered questions.  For me or for them.   It’s this urgency that has given me courage to ask questions I never would have, try new things I would have let fear deny me of, and be who I really want to be.  It has opened a whole new chapter in my life and lead me down paths I never would have gone. –Thus creating new memories that are mine forever.
So, I guess this is where I say, “Thanks Mom.”

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Musical Memories

Not much going on at the present moment.  I survived “Black Monday” at the Floral Shop with 3 complaints from Mother’s Day, which is not bad at all considering we literally had hundreds of orders. 
Since then, it’s been housework and dealing with an unusually whiny and clingy kidlet.  Not sure what’s going on there….
In the meantime, I’ve been pondering a lot of things.  One of which is the scariness of the current world.  Maybe it’s just me, but Cyclones, Tornadoes, Earthquakes and Wild Fires….not to mention rising prices on everything and a dramatic increase in the number of hungry people in the world….  Maybe it’s the news trying to get ratings, but this is the first time in my life where I’ve actually felt a little scared watching the news at night. 
On a much lighter note, I’ve also been thinking about how certain songs bring you back in a second to a past time or place.  Even better some songs remind you of someone.  I love this phenomenon.  I love hearing “Gin Blossoms” and being carried back to my parents house and that neighborhood in my mind, or “Shania Twain” (barf) and being taken back to the bathroom on E Floor of Shoemaker Hall at my college.  Songs are so powerful that way.  I love that.
I then got to thinking….I wonder what songs remind people of me?  (yikes)  Maybe it’s best I don’t find out. 
Well, off to get through this afternoon and look forward to the reward of Season Finales on TV.  It doesn’t take much to make me happy.