Autobiography

Here are the pics of everything I got done yesterday.  Again, the pendants didn’t come out as well as I hoped, but at least I know how to fix it before we do the next batch.  Live and learn!

*Autobiography*

*Autobiography*

 

Necklace Pendants

Necklace Pendants

 

 

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Skipping Stones

Wow.  Today has been a great day.  Hubby essentially gave me the day off by taking care of kidlet today.  I got pictures dumped off the camera onto the computer and a couple edited.  I finished curing my jewelry pendants and although they didn’t come out like I had hoped, it was a test run, and a good one.  I got 3 canvases prepped and one collage done.  I haven’t gotten a chance to work on this many of “my” projects in at least over a year.  I’m feeling really well.  I’ll have pics here tomorrow, as my camera’s SD Card and my computer are not liking each other at the moment.
Speaking of tomorrow, as we were sitting down to supper tonight, the phone rings.  I thought, “So help me God, if this is another Call from the Republicans….” I look at our caller ID which read my work number.  I answer to hear my boss telling me that I don’t need to come in tomorrow because essentially she can’t afford to have me there tomorrow, but she will pay me for 3 hours of work I can do from home for the business website, and she finished the conversation letting me know that I would see her on Monday as usual.  Wow.  I’ve been working there 6 years, and this has never happened nor have I ever heard of it happening before.  I wonder if I need to start looking for a web-based side job…anyone hiring?
So, I guess this leaves me with time tomorrow.  I guess I’ll clean the house after I drop kidlet off at daycare and I’ll do yard work in the afternoon.  Or maybe I’ll just drink all day.  (Kidding!)
I’ve wrapped up Chpt. 4 of my Floral Design Course.  I’m at a 96% and am waiting for my next shipment to come in which will give me what I need for Chpts. 5-9.  For as many “irons in the fire” as I have right now, I feel more productive than ever. 
In the meantime, it’s time for me to nod off….

Falling, Falling, Falling, Fall

Yesterday was simply amazing.  We took a drive up north to see fall colors.  We ate a wonderful lunch at a family Diner in St. Germain.  The owner even run by the spitting-image of a friend of mine who is serving overseas. He even had the same name and great sense of humor.  You could have knocked me over with a feather.  We saw Canadian Geese flying south all day, I took pics of fall colors and we ended up at a Craft Show where I got a BEAUTIFUL lime green, wool, hand-knit purse and a sock monkey for Kidlet.  I FINALLY found a Sock Monkey!  Can I get an AMEN??? —Okay, Okay, sorry. 

Gorgeous Fall Colors Yesterday on the Road

Gorgeous Fall Colors Yesterday on the Road

 

Kidlet Loving the Well-Pump Water Fountain
Kidlet Loving the Well-Pump Water Fountain

 

Hubby and Kidlet Walking Happily in Fall Colors

Hubby and Kidlet Walking Happily in Fall Colors

 

Canadian Geese Flying South

Canadian Geese Flying South

More Brilliant Fall Colors

More Brilliant Fall Colors

I honestly couldn’t have asked for a better day.  It was a beautiful day out with the family and one of the few days I spent the day living in the moment.  It served as a great escape from my thoughts about my life and my work at the floral shop. 
You see, my boss wants fall pictures of the shop and greenhouse up on website.  However, I’ve taken the pictures with my camera, which has a memory card and also a USB cable to transfer pics.  Her computer doesn’t have a SD Card Slot and if I transfer by USB, they have to have the software from Canon on their computer, not to mention that I run everything through Photo Shop before uploading. –That program is also only on my computer.  So my wish, as I’ve done before is to take a day where kidlet is at Day Care and I can work from home.  However she’s been denying me this and my gut tell me that she doesn’t like the idea, and my worst fear is it’s because she doesn’t trust me. –Like I’m going to mark a bunch of hours down that I haven’t ACTUALLY worked, which I would never do.  So, I’m stuck with this project and no real quality time to do it, as my days with kidlet are crazy and I have little to no time at night once she’s down, because of the things I need to catch up on for the family.  So, I really don’t know what to do about it.  Hubby suggests not doing them until she gives me time to.  And things at work are such that if she has a problem with a person, they’re usually the last to know.  I guess it’s time to out my big girl panties on and talk to her about it.  Being an adult sucks sometimes.  Oh well…certainly not the end of the world.
I’ve also been thinking about my life a lot lately and I want more out of it.  I want to pursue my education, but as trivial as it sounds, I don’t know what to go into.  My main interests do lie in floristry/plants-but I hesitate to pursue, because I’m pretty sure my hourly wage would not increase even with the new knowledge.  My other passion is art.  I want desperately to learn how to make jewelry.–Specifically Poly-resin Orchid Jewelry)  I would LOVE to become a Craft Vendor, but am unsure how, and the time needed (i.e. how many shows I would need to sell at to make it worthwhile.)  I want knowledge in a new area to make me more valuable if that makes sense.  I would love to run my own business (i.e. Craft Vendor) where I could work at home creating, even on a day or two a month where kidlet is at Day Care. 
Obviously I have a butt-load of things to think about and I’m open to ANY suggestions at all.  I would, in fact, greatly appreciate them.

Stop the Presses!

Stop the Presses!  STOP THE PRESSES!!!!  I believe that shift you felt was the world ceasing turning and I’m pretty sure everyone is getting off single-file now.  I FINISHED SOMETHING!!!!!!
No Really!!!  I FINISHED AN ART PROJECT WHILE HAVING A 1 1/2 YEAR OLD!!!!!  Here’s Proof:

The 1st Beaded Necklace Finished With the Beads I Made!

The 1st Beaded Necklace Finished With the Beads I Made!

 

Paper Beads

Paper Beads

 

See?  SEE!?!?!?!  A new necklace to replace my old one!  Yay!  It took a long time, but it was worth it! 
So, if I’ve come across as crazy by asking for people’s old magazines, this is what they’re for. 
You’re still taking me to the institution though, aren’t you?  Oh well, lemme get my supplies at least……

Nuclear Fall Out

Yesterday was a hard day….it was a day I felt really lonely-really missing my family. –By that, I mean the family that doesn’t exist anymore.  I was missing my mom, but it was bigger than that.  I realized that I missed my nuclear family.  (My mom, my dad and I)  And I realized too that despite being unhealthy, dysfunctional, and corrupted, I belonged.  I really haven’t had that feeling since.  And the days I miss my mom, I mean I miss the very few days I got a real glimpse of her..usually right out of rehab.  I missed the fun that we had, and because of death, selective memory becomes easier and all those years we fought or rarely spoke or that avoided her like the plague (because of her clinical depression & alcoholism) seem to fade in remembrance of the few good times.  I know that.  
But in lieu of all this, I wish to become closer with my dad, in a relaxed friendship sort of way.  I know despite my age that I will always be his little girl and he will always be my dad, but after 27 years I think I’ve also earned some friendship thrown in there.–Sometime to forget our roles and enjoy each other as we are.  I guess I’m craving this more than usual because he is the only link I have left to the roots I miss and he is the only parent I have left. 
I wrote him an e-mail explaining this yesterday.  I have yet to get a reply, but I know this is a busy week for him, so we shall see. 
In the meantime, I also know I need to work on letting all this go.  The only thing that’s preventing that at the moment is this void I feel.  I guess I find myself desperately wanting to fill it (at least a little) with something so I can be the best person I can. (as in Wife, Mother and Friend)  Most days, letting go isn’t a big struggle–yesterday I just fell down I guess.  You win some and you lose some.  *shrug*
I did finally get a chance to work on my art last night.  I have a lot more to do, but somehow, the little I did get done was some pretty good therapy in lieu if a pretty bad day. 

Paper Beads I Started on...They need more work yet

Paper Beads I Started on...They need more work yet

 

The new canvas I started. (Also needs more work) I was in a Sci-Fi mood-which is odd for me.

The new canvas I started. (Also needs more work) I was in a Sci-Fi mood-which is odd for me.

I’m sure you noticed one of the Dragon Fly-like things has it’s head ripped off.  That was compliments of kidlet.  The head was found and is being repaired at the moment.  Oh well.  It’ll still work.