Turning Over a New Leaf :)

I apologize for my lapse in blogging, but my world has taken off and I figured what a better day to catch up than this.
I’ve done a lot of work on myself after realizing the lack of control we have of others, and I’ve finally made this astonishing  transition from the part of my life where I live up to other standards and what they think I should do, to living up to my standards and that of my family.  The change has been amazingly joyous as I finally have the self-respect to cut drama out of my life.  There for a while my ego was doing everything it could to suck me in and cause pain, and I’ve finally said, “Enough!”  It seems to have changed everything in my life for the better.   I now respect myself and my family enough to put up boundaries in relationships where there’s a need.  I live by “what you see is what you get” and I expect the same from others. In realizing this, I found some relationships in my life where words said one thing and the actions were another.  I’m better than this.  I deserve better than this.
Apparently I must be doing something right as I’m so much less stressed & conflicted (unless it comes to our calender and deadlines at the moment), new/old relationships with past friends have arisen and are wonderful, my husband and I argue less and when we do argue, it’s solved with an “I’m sorry” and an understanding that both of us had a bad moment.–There’s no re-hashing who-said-what-to-hurt-who etc.  Our luck too has drastically turned around, and I honestly couldn’t ask for more right now.
Kidlet is thriving too.  I will not deny her any relationships with anyone granted those relationships are honest and loving, and I’m happy to say she has that in her life right now.–Abundantly!  I know I’m biased but she’s the best thing since sliced bread and I am honored to be her mother.
I wake up right now literally feeling  joy everyday.  This is the first time in my life I can say that.  There is so much to be said for newfound self-respect.
In new Business/Knitting news:  I’m on the home stretch of my knitting orders.  I have 10 ornaments left and the base of one hat and flowers for 3 hats to do and then my hands can rest for a bit.  I can’t believe how this has taken off!  My new business “Launch” of-sorts will be Nov.  21st-22nd when my ornaments hit the sales floor of the shop I work in.  Granted-I don’t have a website yet to back this up, but I need inventory for that, so I’m setting a tentative goal of Feb. 1st to sell on-line and launch the website.
I do have new pics to share of product:

24 Sweater Ornaments
24 Sweater Ornaments

24 Hat ornaments
24 Hat ornaments

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The Apple Cider Vinegar Gang….or not.

Wow.  I know it’s been a while since my last post.  I apologize.  There’s just something about RL that seems to take over.  Who knew? 
Anyway, I’m doing well.  I’ve dropped a total of 10 lbs. so far but have been stuck in a plateau for 4 weeks now.  I’m officially on the cusp of desperation.  I’m in the gym 5 days a week now for at least an hour each session.  I’ve even tried doing straight shots of Apple Cider Vinegar in the mornings….until my stomach said “screw you” in so many words.  That in itself was so nasty that I dare not puke to have to re-live it again.  Ack.
I know I’m gaining muscle mass as my clothes continue to get looser and I can now beat my Hubby in full-body push ups.   I’m also lifting 50-60lbs. on all the weight machines across the board and I can now run a mile without needing to call EMS.   But the number is still frustrating me.  Hopefully something will give soon.    Otherwise, my dad always said that if one wanted to drop 20lbs. of ugly fat ASAP, they can always cut off their head.   Something to think about.
In other news, life is good.   Work is still quiet, but the days are getting warmer which is triggering Spring Fever here and thus more customers, if nothing else, to look.
I’ve also reconnected with some old friends and that has been great.  It’s funny how time flies.  My best friend from college has also been kind enough to come and visit twice in 3 months, and each time is amazing.  It’s one of those relationships you can pick up right where you left off, be yourself, say anything and it all just works incredibly well.  You don’t come across those kind of relationships too often.  I am certainly lucky.
Our summer is looking busy, but a busy that I can’t wait for.  Admittedly, with my husband’s line of work, our “Family/recreational” summer doesn’t kick off until the end of August, but come Sept. there’s an amazing group camping trip to the U.P. in the works, and on Labor Day my Hubby and I will be going to our first Brewer’s Game.  I had so hoped to be able to see U2 this summer, but after looking at venues and ticket prices…..yeah…not gonna happen.  I’m pretty bummed about that, but this summer should still be good nonetheless.  If anyone has another concert they want to see, let me know!!!!!!!
Otherwise, that’s about it for now.  My life at the moment is the gym, work and kidlet.  Oh, and kidlet is doing great.  She now sings with the radio including the All American Rejects “Hope it Gives you Hell.”  Unfortunately, the only word she sings is “hell.”  Oops.  She’s growing like a weed and continues to surprise us everyday with something new out of her mouth.

My Winter of Discontent

Ahhh, another V-Day survived in the Floral Shop.  Granted this one was a lot slower than any in my memory.  When V-Day falls on a weekend it’s usually slower for Florists anyway, but couple that with the economy and it was down all the way around.  All we can do is hope next year is better.
With down business means lack of stories this year.  I usually have a good tale or two about guys sending to multiple girlfriends or any other number of creepy events, but no such luck this year.  Oh well.

I’m frying a bigger fish in my life right now.  And I sit here angry at myself.  I have a really great life.  A wonderful husband, a beautiful little girl, a roof over our head, and I still sit with a void in my life.  I don’t know what it is, but the feeling of this empty hole in the pit of my stomach is eating me alive.  I’m restless 24/7 and always feeling like I should be working on something bigger, but I have no idea what that something is. 
On the other hand, I sit here yelling at myself.  How dare I ask for more when so many have less.  How dare I not feel satisfied.  How dare I want more.  How selfish of me. 

I have tomorrow off and think I will spend my day here at this computer, looking up charities or projects that are bigger than me that might offer a shot at filling this void.  Maybe, just maybe I’ll get lucky and get an answer.  A girl can only hope.

Friday the 13th Came Early. Trust Me.

It’s been a very busy few days here.  Friday at work was just STRANGE.  First, I had a guy come in the shop and ask to use the phone.  It wasn’t until he was ON the phone that I over-heard “Yeah, I just got out of jail.  You still got that ride for me?”  Wonderful.   Dear God, I wanted to go out with a bang, but like this?  Figures.
I then fielded a call from one of the local funeral home directors who opened with “Do you have one of them, there Singing Valentine’s?”  Not knowing who it was I politely replied “We sure do,” and it was then that he revealed himself and told me that he was just kidding.  He proceeded to place an order for an upcoming funeral and when I asked for the last name of the deceased he says, “Butt. B-U-T-T.”  I didn’t say a word as I squelched a giggle.  It just figures that the name was the one thing he WASN’T kidding about. 
Saturday brought kidlet’s 2nd Birthday Party.  It’s true that her birthday isn’t until this week, but with V-Day falling on a Saturday this year and I working in a Floral Shop, it worked better to have it early this year.  We enjoyed family and friends, and it was a great afternoon.  Kidlet had a blast of her own seeing everyone.  It’s so hard to believe she’s 2 already!
On a different note, I’ve been blessed to have some former friends cross my path again.  I’m so happy to hear from them and get in touch with their lives.  It’s astonishing how fast time flies!
Otherwise, I’ve been living at the gym.  Friday was my day OFF of working out and it figures that I spent that whole morning trying to figure out when I could squeeze another workout in.  Sure enough, 6:45a.m. Sat. morning where was I?  In the gym parking lot waiting for it to open.  Yeah, I don’t know what’s happened to me either.
This week brings 5 more hours at the gym, and an additional day of work this week with Valentine’s Day.   It’s this holiday that always brings interesting stories.  I’ll be sure to share.

Return To Sender

I know I’ve been lacking in posts recently and I apologize.  However, this month every year brings the stress of decorating, baking, shopping, wrapping, working, cleaning, traveling….so that’s where I’ve been. 
To be honest, I’ll be happy when it’s done.  I know that’s a terrible attitude to have, but I’m tired.  I AM happy to report that I’m done with 98% of everything minus the 4 day Christmas World Tour (and by World, I mean WI.) 
Kidlet is providing me with much needed inspiration, smiles and laughter which make these jammed-packed times seem all worth it.  She is an incredible blessing.
It’s odd that I’m finding myself using work as an “escape,” but with the co-workers I have, it’s easy to understand why.  One of them accidentally sent out a stack of Christmas Cards out not only without Return Address Labels but also without Stamps–resulting in various people getting a card that says “Merry Christmas!” –POSTAGE DUE.  We had a great laugh telling her that maybe she’s on to something with the current Recession.   I told her that she should really send apology notes out, also without stamps or return address labels.  She didn’t seem to like that idea.
Otherwise, all is well here.  I promise to resume more regular writing after this whirlwind of Holidays is through.

Say What Now?

What a good day.  Granted it started a bit rocky with a conversation with my co-worker/friend about how defeated I felt yesterday, feeling that I lost on both the kidlet and housekeeping fronts.  She chimed in with “Welcome to Motherhood.  There are A LOT of days like that.” 
I replied, “I was kinda hoping for a comment that might make me consider taking the Suicide Hotline off my Speed Dial.” 
“I don’t have time to sugar coat things, Hunny.”  –Gee, Thanks!
My day got better despite decorating fresh evergreen wreaths all day for the cemetery.  I like to think that my making of wreaths for the dead, adds to my karma points.  A girl can hope….
The nearly impossible happened today.  Working in the floral shop for 6 years now I’ve seen almost everything.  But today was a whole new ball of wax.–First, we got a call from a family member of a deceased person telling us that they only wanted 5 flowers at the funeral and that if anyone else called wanting to send flowers, we were to tell them the family prefers money.  Ummmm…no.  I don’t really think that’s in our job description as a floral shop, so that’s not gonna happen. 
Second, a 17 yr old guy came in with his mom this afternoon, wanting to get flowers for his girlfriend.  It wasn’t anything new until they asked if we had artificial roses.  I showed them what we had and he chose one artificial red rose and ordered 11 fresh red roses all to vased together (equaling a dozen.)  The kicker?  The card (which he came up with on his own) read, “I’ll love you until the last rose dies.”  Wow.  Even after all I’ve seen, I still remain hugely impressed.  I told him that at least he can write for Hallmark if everything else falls through for him. 
Finally, a writer came in the shop today, and while wrapping her purchases I told her that I’ve always wanted to write a Children’s Book, but have no idea how to go about publishers and all that stuff.  She was kind enough to give me a name of a book that should have all the info I need, which saved me about a week of research.  I’m so happy answers pop up when you need them. 
Who was the writer by the way?  Victoria Huston.  She’s written a host of mysteries using the Northwoods of WI as her backdrop and people in small towns as her characters–indirectly of course.   A list of the books she’s written is here: http://www.amazon.com/s/ref=nb_ss_b?url=search-alias%3Dstripbooks&field-keywords=Victoria+Houston
Oh!  And I almost forgot!  I have a new member of my Cattleya family:

The Newest 'Chid

The Newest 'Chid

 

7 buds!!

7 buds!!

 

What can I say?  I saw it at work, it has 7 fricken buds and the price was right. –Stop looking at me like that…..
Well, I’m off to continue watching the Packer Game and update my Amazon Wish List before Hubby gets me anything for Christmas. 🙂

Bah-HumBug

Today was well…..CRAPPY.  I got into work today, feeling solemn–emotionally, mentally and physically drained.  The vibe from my co-workers didn’t help.  It’s the time of year where 12 women try to decorate one store  for Christmas and there gets to be too many cooks in the kitchen and too much estrogen…need I say more?  Bah.
I did my best to pull myself out of it, but i never really succeeded.  Even being in the back and up to my elbows in soil as I planted a Lady Palm, didn’t raise my spirits…that’s almost unheard of.
So, I’m glad today is done.  It was spent filling funeral orders and hanging Christmas ornaments while being trapped in my own head.  YIKES.  I’m physically still feeling like hell, as I’m still dealing with an eye infection, and now a cold or sinus thing on top of it.  The upside to all of this, is that I now have enough meds to run a small nursing home.   
So, I think I’m going to try and take this weekend for me.  To rest, to sort things out, to get my head back in the game, in part to get my head pulled out of my butt and my body back to normal.  We’ll see how it goes.

Good Morning, Madam

“<discreet cough> Good Morning Madam.  I’m so sorry to disturb you, but it appears to be morning.  Very inconvenient, I agree.  I believe it’s the rotation of the earth that is to blame.” 
Now THERE’S the alarm clock I want. 🙂 

Today has been eventful.  I woke up this morning with my left eye red and practically swollen shut.  YAY!  Hubby asked if I was going to go to Urgent Care for it and I told him it depended on how work went.  He asked if I could do him a favor, and upon asking what he wanted, he said, “Can you walk like this *doing his best Igor walk impression* today?”  Jerk.
I got to work and got the honor of taking my first funeral family.  (Meaning that I got to sit with them and help them figure out what they wanted for the services.)  It would just figure that it’s the day that I look half-put together with no eye make-up on and admittedly, Igor-ish.  Thank you, God.  Good to see your sense of Humor is still intact. 
I finished with the family and my boss said that I should go to the Dr.  I got to Urgent Care to find most of the city in line.  Awesome.  2 hours later, I finally had my perscription for my eye drops and a note from the Dr. saying that I couldn’t go back to work because of Pink Eye being contagious.  Okay then.
I got home to a dirty house and promised myself I wouldn’t clean today because it doesn’t normally get done today and I needed a break.  Yeah, that didn’t work.  What’s wrong with me?  Oh well, I may still look horrible, but my house is okay. 
I suppose it’s time for me to head into town to pick up kidlet from Day Care.  Back to Mothering!

Requests From a Floral Girl

Yesterday at work was quiet…annoyingly so.  Between the dreary weather and the slow day I was in a snarky mood.  I did however come up with a few requests I have of the world.
First, if you call a floral shop last minute wanting an order to be sent to a funeral, and we’re taking the orders to the funeral home in 10 minutes, please don’t be disappointed when the only thing we can send is a plant. 
Second, if you’re a customer looking to use our restroom, you do so, your ass explodes in there and I’m working RIGHT outside the door, a warning would be nice.  A “sorry about that,” or a simple “run!” would be great.  Thank you.
I also discovered that if I have too much coffee in the afternoon, I tend to resemble a Parkinson’s patient having a seizure…which also makes for increased difficulties making bows.  I guess I’ll tack that down as Life Lesson #141. 
In other news, Hubby and I watched the movie “The Guardian” last night.  If you have not seen it, it’s worth it to do so!  What a great flick & it’s even a guy flick!  –That’s impressive coming from me.
And finally, since the nearest Olive Garden around us is 100 miles away and the last time I was there was 2004, Hubby and I have found a couple of recipes to try and copy their Minestrone Soup and Salad.  I’ll let you know how it goes.  I thought it’s at least a try….wish us luck!

Merry Halloween!!

Happy Halloween!  I ironically spent mine stringing Christmas lights on trees, putting together another tree, hanging ornaments, etc.  Tis’ the Season!
I got off work an hour early to pick up kidlet to go Trick-or-Treating.  She had gone once during daycare, but we still had to make the rounds to Grandma & Grandpa and Auntie.  So, I picked her up, took her home, got her dressed, gathered our things and left.  Went to Grandma & Grandpa’s, then went around the block to Auntie’s, then further around the block back to Grandma & Grandma’s.  There, we found that Grandpa had gone back into the woods, so we took Grandma out to eat.  Upon finishing dinner, we dropped Grandma off back at their house and did a major grocery shopping trip.  After getting home and unloaded, we got kidlet to sleep and I squeezed in a work-out and a shower.  I’m tired.
The Hot Air Balloon Company called my cell during work asking if we would like to try to go again as this weekend’s weather is looking really nice.  A few phone calls made and a few phone calls returned, it looks like we’ll be trying again tomorrow night.  Keep your finger’s crossed!  Grandma is kind enough to take kidlet over-night Saturday, so that should be nice.
Sunday we’ll be heading to my hometown to see kidet’s other Grandparents and attend the Halloween Parade.  My parents are planning on having lunch for us, which means an early kidlet pick-up and road-trip.  A busy weekend indeed!
I don’t really have anything witty or thought-provoking today.  Weariness has taken all of those thoughts hours ago. 

Our Lil Princess

Our Lil' Princess

 

Happy Halloween!

Happy Halloween!

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