Turning Over a New Leaf :)

I apologize for my lapse in blogging, but my world has taken off and I figured what a better day to catch up than this.
I’ve done a lot of work on myself after realizing the lack of control we have of others, and I’ve finally made this astonishing  transition from the part of my life where I live up to other standards and what they think I should do, to living up to my standards and that of my family.  The change has been amazingly joyous as I finally have the self-respect to cut drama out of my life.  There for a while my ego was doing everything it could to suck me in and cause pain, and I’ve finally said, “Enough!”  It seems to have changed everything in my life for the better.   I now respect myself and my family enough to put up boundaries in relationships where there’s a need.  I live by “what you see is what you get” and I expect the same from others. In realizing this, I found some relationships in my life where words said one thing and the actions were another.  I’m better than this.  I deserve better than this.
Apparently I must be doing something right as I’m so much less stressed & conflicted (unless it comes to our calender and deadlines at the moment), new/old relationships with past friends have arisen and are wonderful, my husband and I argue less and when we do argue, it’s solved with an “I’m sorry” and an understanding that both of us had a bad moment.–There’s no re-hashing who-said-what-to-hurt-who etc.  Our luck too has drastically turned around, and I honestly couldn’t ask for more right now.
Kidlet is thriving too.  I will not deny her any relationships with anyone granted those relationships are honest and loving, and I’m happy to say she has that in her life right now.–Abundantly!  I know I’m biased but she’s the best thing since sliced bread and I am honored to be her mother.
I wake up right now literally feeling  joy everyday.  This is the first time in my life I can say that.  There is so much to be said for newfound self-respect.
In new Business/Knitting news:  I’m on the home stretch of my knitting orders.  I have 10 ornaments left and the base of one hat and flowers for 3 hats to do and then my hands can rest for a bit.  I can’t believe how this has taken off!  My new business “Launch” of-sorts will be Nov.  21st-22nd when my ornaments hit the sales floor of the shop I work in.  Granted-I don’t have a website yet to back this up, but I need inventory for that, so I’m setting a tentative goal of Feb. 1st to sell on-line and launch the website.
I do have new pics to share of product:

24 Sweater Ornaments
24 Sweater Ornaments

24 Hat ornaments
24 Hat ornaments

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Summer Breezes

I know it’s been forever since I’ve written, but everyday I’m striving to meet so many deadlines that fall in November.   But, here are the updates in my life:

Knitting:  I’M FINISHED WITH SWEATERS AND HATS (Ornaments)!!!  I’ve started the Mitten Ornaments and just have Scarves left after that.  In English; I have 46 Ornaments left to knit before November.

Miniature Hat Ornaments

Miniature Hat Ornaments

As for the children’s hats, I still have 6 of those left to knit before November as well.  No pressure…. He he. 🙂   I still can’t believe that this business (Kate’s Grace) that kind of created itself is doing so well with no pre-exisiting inventory.  I’m so blessed.

Orchids:  They are doing amazing despite my lack of attention to them lately.  Pics to prove:

Lc. Llory Ann 'Paradise'

Lc. Llory Ann 'Paradise'

Blc. Lawless Zauberflote 'Rainbow'

Blc. Lawless Zauberflote 'Rainbow'

And my Passion Flower in bloom:

Passion Flower

Passion Flower

Family:
We’ve had a very busy summer.  Because of my husband’s job we don’t get to take the tradition summer vacations, but I’ve made quite an effort to go and do something as a family every weekend just around our area.  In doing that we’ve attended a Hot Air Balloon Rally, we went to the zoo, we went Jet Skiing, we went Camping with friends, and have attended various festivals.  So, our summer has felt full and I’m happy for that.  Kidlet has loved everything that we’ve done.

Hot Air Balloon Glow

Hot Air Balloon Glow

Kidlet enjoying the festivities

Kidlet enjoying the festivities

Well, I guess that’s all from here for now.  I’m off to do some business e-mails and place some orders…and so it goes 🙂

What Did I Do?

Whoa.  I’m in a moment of feeling overwhelmed.  For anyone that knows me, you know that knitting is a serious passion of mine.  I just never expected it to explode like this.  As I’ve mentioned before I first had an order for 10 children’s hats.  I’ve finished 6 of those.  Since then, I’ve gotten an order for 2 more.  On top of those orders, my boss has put in an order for 24 sweater ornaments, 24 mitten ornaments, 24 scarf ornaments and 24 hat ornaments.  Did I mention that all of these orders need to be done by at least early November???
I’m more than happy to do the work, but I sit here frustrated because as much time as I throw at it, it is all so slow-going.  I know it’s only July but I sit here worried that I will run out of time.  Somehow I need to lose this anxiety and get back to enjoying.
In the meantime, here are some pics of what I’ve completed:

Completed sweater ornaments

Completed sweater ornaments

Close Up

Close Up

Sets of Stitch Markers I completed
Sets of Stitch Markers I completed
I guess it’s back to the grind for the moment.  I think I’ll feel better as soon as I have a big chunk of these finished.  I just wish they didn’t take so long!

I Did it!

After a lot of nerves yesterday, I’m glad I did it….the tattoos that is.  These are my first marks not easily hidden and I really had reservations, but in the end I couldn’t be happier.  Here are the long awaited pics!

The 2 together :)

The 2 together 🙂

My Left Wrist

My Left Wrist

My Right Wrist

My Right Wrist

Getting them didn’t hurt nearly as much as I expected.  The shoulder and my lower back still take the cake are far as the most painful tattoos.  Today, they just feel like bad sunburns, and so I’m busy “gooping” 6 times a day for 4 days.  Small price to pay. 🙂
Otherwise, not too much new here.  Camp opens Sunday but we’re taking kidlet to the lake swimming tomorrow so that should be fun.   I still have A LOT of knitting to do.  At least now I have the ink to keep me motivated. 🙂

Knitting+Jewelry=Hell Yeah

I’ve been needing stitch markers for awhile now and have been searching high and low for a set that was “distinctively me” and even after the incredible section on http://www.Etsy.com, I couldn’t bring myself to buy.  So, while searching yet again yesterday, I came across this blog post and got inspired: http://www.wormspit.com/stitchmarkers.htm.
So, my new mission is looking for various charms, etc. so I can make my own.   I thought it would be a nice addition to the business…especially seeing I bought a lot of jewelry making supplies last year and still have yet to use them… I’ll let you know how they turn out.
That’s all I have for the moment.  I’m really under the weather today and just need to hope that tomorrow will be better.

Inky

As of late, I’ve been restless.  Ink restless.  And there’s been a few tattoos I’ve been wanting for awhile, and having been living knitting lately, I thought it was time I committed to my love.  I spent nights searching and searching knitting tattoos and nothing took my breath away until I came across this gem:  It was love at first site:

(Minus the flowers) This will be the new addition of ink.

(Minus the flowers) This will be the new addition of ink.

Upside down, obvioulsy it reads "Purl"

Upside down, obviously it reads "Purl"

I’m taking the plunge this time because I will be getting these (small!) on my wrists in brown.  One arm will read “Purl” and the other “Knit.”  I say taking the plunge, because my other 6 tattoos are all strategically placed so that they can be easily covered.  These will be my first marks away from that, and after hard consideration, I’m okay with that.  Nothing that brings me true joy in life involves me sitting in an office (unless one day it’s my own) and I hardly consider these marks “offensive,” so, here we go!

Otherwise, there hasn’t been much news here.  Still long hours for Hubby but hopefully that will improve next week with the start of camp.  As for the floral shop, we’re still waiting for the true “Gardening Rush” as the cold weather has post-poned that.  I’m thinking this week (being our first of warm weather and non frosty nights) will be it.

Oh, and also we have bears.  Not that that’s big news living in 1100 acres of woods, but when we saw this cubby up a tree by our yard, we got the point.  At least he was cute!

Cubby!

Cubby!

Luckily, no signs of Momma!

Luckily, no signs of Momma!

Smooth Away…Far, Far Away

Okay, I’ve never been big on infomercials.  Call me a skeptic.  So, when I saw a commerical for something called “Smooth Away”–where you buff away your hair, I dismissed it and mentally made fun of the suckers who would order.  It wasn’t until my sister-in-law actually got and said it worked that I got thinking.  Now that I’m at the gym 5 days a week, I do the majority of my bathing there and as anyone (okay-girl) knows, shaving in a locker room bathroom isn’t exactly comfortable.  So, I bit–Thinking that this would be a great way to maintain my girly-ness during the week.  
The package arrived here Weds. night.  In a lull between kidlet being happy and supper getting underway, I took it into the bathroom to give it a test run.  Having recently shaved, I didn’t really have much to work with so I thought I would do my upper lip. 
*Rub, rub, rub* “Hmmm..seems to be working a little, but I should press harder. ”
*Rub, rub, rub* “That’s the ticket.  Feels okay so far…..lemme finish up here….and done.  Oh wait, missed a spot….” *Rubbing harder* “Okay, really done.  I should lotion.” 
*Applying cream…pausing…starting to feel pain as a pink mark spreads across my lip…pain turning to burning….pink getting red.  Wanting to scream but kidlet is just down the hall.  More lotion should help–another wave of pain and burning.  More lotion still.  More pain and burning still. 
“Well, I guess I just figured out what it’s like to take a power sander to my face.”   With nothing left to do, I went out to see my husband with a tell tale red mustache of doom.  The look on my face told him not to mess to me, and my mark told him I had been through enough, so he was kind–not even laughing in front of me. 
I applied 5 more coats of lotion that night, praying for the best the next day.  
The best didn’t exactly come.  As I wandered into the gym, my “red mustache of doom” had tamed to pink, but all in all, I still looked like I just blew the Koolaid Guy.  “Ohhhhh, yeah.” 
LUCKILY, by Friday (and work) it was tame enough to cover with make-up.  Praise the Lord.
In the meantime, you’d think that all of this would be enough for me to pitch them.  Maybe it’s because of the recession or more realistically, because I’m slow, I’m gave them another whirl last night.  This time on my legs.  Surprisingly, it was this time that they actually worked like a charm, so I guess it’s not a complete waste. 
Life Lesson #156 Taking ANY kind of sand paper to your face is a BAD IDEA.  Hope this helps someone.

The Apple Cider Vinegar Gang….or not.

Wow.  I know it’s been a while since my last post.  I apologize.  There’s just something about RL that seems to take over.  Who knew? 
Anyway, I’m doing well.  I’ve dropped a total of 10 lbs. so far but have been stuck in a plateau for 4 weeks now.  I’m officially on the cusp of desperation.  I’m in the gym 5 days a week now for at least an hour each session.  I’ve even tried doing straight shots of Apple Cider Vinegar in the mornings….until my stomach said “screw you” in so many words.  That in itself was so nasty that I dare not puke to have to re-live it again.  Ack.
I know I’m gaining muscle mass as my clothes continue to get looser and I can now beat my Hubby in full-body push ups.   I’m also lifting 50-60lbs. on all the weight machines across the board and I can now run a mile without needing to call EMS.   But the number is still frustrating me.  Hopefully something will give soon.    Otherwise, my dad always said that if one wanted to drop 20lbs. of ugly fat ASAP, they can always cut off their head.   Something to think about.
In other news, life is good.   Work is still quiet, but the days are getting warmer which is triggering Spring Fever here and thus more customers, if nothing else, to look.
I’ve also reconnected with some old friends and that has been great.  It’s funny how time flies.  My best friend from college has also been kind enough to come and visit twice in 3 months, and each time is amazing.  It’s one of those relationships you can pick up right where you left off, be yourself, say anything and it all just works incredibly well.  You don’t come across those kind of relationships too often.  I am certainly lucky.
Our summer is looking busy, but a busy that I can’t wait for.  Admittedly, with my husband’s line of work, our “Family/recreational” summer doesn’t kick off until the end of August, but come Sept. there’s an amazing group camping trip to the U.P. in the works, and on Labor Day my Hubby and I will be going to our first Brewer’s Game.  I had so hoped to be able to see U2 this summer, but after looking at venues and ticket prices…..yeah…not gonna happen.  I’m pretty bummed about that, but this summer should still be good nonetheless.  If anyone has another concert they want to see, let me know!!!!!!!
Otherwise, that’s about it for now.  My life at the moment is the gym, work and kidlet.  Oh, and kidlet is doing great.  She now sings with the radio including the All American Rejects “Hope it Gives you Hell.”  Unfortunately, the only word she sings is “hell.”  Oops.  She’s growing like a weed and continues to surprise us everyday with something new out of her mouth.

Is It Spring Yet?

It’s been awhile since my l ast post, but here is the update.  I’m still living at the gym and have dropped a total of 10 lbs. and a pant size so far.  Of course, I’m hoping to do more, but I guess there’s something called patience that I have to have as well.  Bah.
Otherwise, things have been quiet here.  Kidlet is doing amazingly and surprising us everyday with something new.  Today she sang an OAR song on the way to Day Care.  Who knew? 
Work has still been slow, but I keep focussing on the idea that I still have a job and I’m grateful for that.  Spring is just around the corner (hopefully) and that will mean better times.
I have a hauge case of Spring Fever.  I’m already talking to Hubby about scheduling things for Sept. (as we don’t get to have much of a life during summer with Camp.)  The vegetable garden is all planned out and the shopping list of supplies is made.  Sad, I know.
Oh, and I also think it’s terribly wrong that U2 drops a new album and no tour????????  REALLY??  THAT’S NOT RIGHT I TELL YOU…..Not right at all!!!!!!!
We got our Federal Tax money today, so I’ve been sorting through bills looking for things to pay off.  Wow, that’s odd…looking for bills to pay.  Hmmm….I think I need help. 
I’m sorry things aren’t more eventful at the moment, but winter’s tend to be that way around here.  I’m still up at 5:00 or 6:00a.m. headed to the gym most everyday.  Pain and yelling are now my 2 best friends….Yikes.

My Winter of Discontent

Ahhh, another V-Day survived in the Floral Shop.  Granted this one was a lot slower than any in my memory.  When V-Day falls on a weekend it’s usually slower for Florists anyway, but couple that with the economy and it was down all the way around.  All we can do is hope next year is better.
With down business means lack of stories this year.  I usually have a good tale or two about guys sending to multiple girlfriends or any other number of creepy events, but no such luck this year.  Oh well.

I’m frying a bigger fish in my life right now.  And I sit here angry at myself.  I have a really great life.  A wonderful husband, a beautiful little girl, a roof over our head, and I still sit with a void in my life.  I don’t know what it is, but the feeling of this empty hole in the pit of my stomach is eating me alive.  I’m restless 24/7 and always feeling like I should be working on something bigger, but I have no idea what that something is. 
On the other hand, I sit here yelling at myself.  How dare I ask for more when so many have less.  How dare I not feel satisfied.  How dare I want more.  How selfish of me. 

I have tomorrow off and think I will spend my day here at this computer, looking up charities or projects that are bigger than me that might offer a shot at filling this void.  Maybe, just maybe I’ll get lucky and get an answer.  A girl can only hope.

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